I still get butterflies.

Been awhile that I blogged. So I guess it shall be a long post? (: Was busy with preparations for exams and all. Exams is over now and I hope I can score. At least I know, I put in some effort. Oh well, year 1 in NP is great so far and progressing on to year 2 soon. Fast isn't it? Recently just lost all my contacts and I'm not able to retrieve back all the contacts that I have lost. Seems like some people just don't reply to anything don't they? Or maybe they might think that since we have not been talking or contacting each other for so long, what for?

Well, I do not know the actual reason, but just making an assumption. No offenses, or hard feelings. But it isn't that hard to text or reply right? It's okay, I got back some of the more important contacts that I need and I'm fine with the others not replying. I mean, I can't force right? Be it whatever reasons, I already sent a personal and private message in FB, so if I don't get a reply, I won't force.

Okay, Vday has passed but I think it's still alright for me to post about Vday right? Well, Vday is simple for my and my bf. A kinda last min, screw up here and there but simple and enjoyable one. Get what I mean? No? Okay, I shall explain. At first, I thought I can spend the whole day with obviously, my bf. Unexpectedly, he told me he have some video conference thing in school from 4-6.30pm. So okay, first blow. Then I went to make a reservation for dinner but there was some miscommunication, and my reservation is cancelled. That's the second blow.

Cancelled reservation, so I had to look for a place to have dinner but not reservation. Ended up, we decided to go to Holland Village to have dinner at a Mexican restaurant. After deciding and all, I went to prepare myself while my bf is already in the video conference. Third blow, I was late because bus 74 decided to be a bitch and not arrive even went it states 5 minutes. So I reached and met my bf and went to the restaurant. Forth blow, Holland Village was freaking packed! The queue for the restaurant was freaking long, no kidding! Last blow, after dinner we wanted to chill so I suggested Starbucks. But wow, seems like the whole Holland Village decided to chill at Starbucks too! So no choice, we left and headed to Thomson.

Red velvet and chocolate cupcake.

But to say, I still love Thomson Starbucks the most! Bought some coffee for me and earl grey for bf and cupcakes to munch on! Bf was feeling sick that day so it adds on to the 5 blows I had, but this didn't affect that much. Can I say that we are a fairly young but old couple? Well, the things we do and like does not involve loud music, packed like sardines places and etc. Yes, we still hold hands, we still look at each other in the eyes and many more. It's 6 days to our next month but another 37 days to our 3rd year anni. 37 DAYS!! Although it's going to be 3 years together, I still get butterflies sometimes when I'm going to meet him.

The image of us first meeting is still so fresh. My first Vday together is still as fresh too. Can you believe it? We went to Marina Square for a pre-Vday dinner and we ate 8 plates of sushi each. Thinking back, we were kinda crazy but it's all enjoyable. All those different memories we shared, they keep resurfacing in my mind, be it good or bad. This relationship didn't come easy, and yes like every normal couple, we both had our ups and downs in this relationship. At some point, it was really bad, like already on the verge of breaking up. But, I'm glad that we stood strong and overcame that period of time together. That period was just a nightmare, never thought things could be that rough. This was the clip that made me realize that I have to cherish what I already have. For those who have not watched this, I urge you to. And yes, I teared when I watched it. So prepare some tissues if you tear easily like me! Click here to watch the video, Strangers again.

Will blog again soon, since I'm having my holidays! Till now, see ya! (:

And to my bf, I'm glad that we believed in each other.
Let's continue to work hard together and make our dream come true.
Alright?

Do you get that?

Do you get that feeling that you are actually not really needed by someone you think you meant a lot to?

Well, I get that. In fact, always. Not sure whether I am too sensitive to feelings or that I am always paranoid. Or maybe I have a split personality? That I am not me?

I hate the feeling of not being needed by people I regard as important or dear to me. It's like, I can't perform or do anything for them or they don't need me that much like how I needed them.

Do you get the same feeling like I do? If you do, show some support. Not being emo or what so, but just wanna express myself. That I really don't like that feeling, like it's there wouldn't be a difference with or without me, or whether they need me or not.

It applies to not only my family but also the one I hold dearly to. But well, maybe I'm not as great or nice that I think I am. Telling me things in the last minute, I don't really like that either.

Back after a run, I feel no better. I know I need something sweet.

两年十月

Baby, you light up my life like no one else.

Been awhile since I blogged, but first I would want to wish my love, a HAPPY 2 YEARS and 10 MONTHS being together!!

Alright, back to business. Well, school has been hectic for me as usual. With a lot of tutorials and projects to do, with so little time. To why I have little time even if I leave straight after school is because, I work part time on some days, and most importantly, I go gym with my bf on Monday, Wednesday and Friday. So what about Tuesday, Saturday and Sunday?

I would be at the stadium doing my usual runs with my bf on Tuesdays, Saturday is dating day with bf. Sunday is work and homework day. Hectic life right? But well, I'm kinda used to and happy with this lifestyle. At least I get to meet my bf more often, I get to stay healthy and I can maintain my figure. Not saying I am blessed with very good figure, but I am satisfied with mine.

But finally, I can get better rest. I hope. Projects are all submitted, and I am left with the final exams for Year 1. By then, I aim to really rest really really well. But before I start to laze around, I should aim for a good result for the final exams. 3 very mentally draining modules. But as of now, I am kinda tired so I guess I should be going to bed now. Stay tuned for more posts, real soon. On Sunday I guess (: Night folks!