Have you ever wondered how a perfect day could be ruined in a second? Just a split second. And honestly, you don't even know how it came about. And what can be worse when you don't even mean it the way it sounded, and suddenly you're caught in the state where a last chance was given? It's totally a make or break.
Sometimes, you just can't help but wonder, are we really okay? Will we be okay? If so, by when? If so, till when? Is it because after so long then we realize that our characters do not match? Is it that we don't even accept one another's flaws in this relationship? Is it the patience and tolerance level is continuously depleting after being comfortable with each other? Or is it, that we are slowly getting tired of everything in the relationship and couldn't find a way out?
It's so confusing at times. You can't read my signs, and I can't read yours. When we're good, we're really good. But if we're bad, yes we're really bad. We're just like the ends of the North and South pole magnet.
After the night, when I'm home on my bed, thinking about what really went wrong, I can't help but conclude that I was the fire starter. Again. If I could have kept that stupid comment to myself. If I could just nicely, drop a couple more hints even after doing so for many times. Only if.. If I knew the night was going to be so ugly, I wouldn't even have opened my mouth.
Honesty is the best policy they sag. And it is also something I always, always believed in but somehow always backfires on me. I want honesty, now I'm getting it. But is it the best policy? Honestly, I do not know anymore.
Will we work out? For how long? Till how long? Will we get settled down? The vision to the future is as blurry as the fog on the mirror. Sometimes we get caught in such a dramatic situation that we can't handle.
How far can and will you push yourself to get the best results that you want and desire? Will you run out of battery before the finishing line?
We're not bad, but we're not great either.
