jia bin, me, mandy and joan
mandy, joan and me

from IR3. mandy, shasha, joan, me, sabrina and only guy from our class, jia bin.

our pass. with very not nice photos. *enlarged and blurred*

some pictures and views on the site for the s'pore first night race. hahah. had fun working from the 26 to 28th.. =D was tiring for my legs and my sole is hurting like hell. i think its caused due to the standing and walking for very very very long hours. =( and the muscles ached when i woke up this morning. now, its fine. didn meet him as promised. something obviously happened.. when, nvm. at least we met up at the morning at 8.30am on the 27th. the time we met was short but, sweet. he says he doesn wan me to work for such long hours because his heart aches when i complain to him that my sole hurts. hahah.. =D now, he calls me 'ironwoman' because i call him 'ironman'. cus he can tahan very long hours of works without any aches. *wow* well, stayed at home today and rest my poooooor legs. haha. they are okay now. see my mood whether tml iim meeting him or not.

will be meeting da jie, mandy and xiao mei later on to get the instruction booklet for the F1 thing. hmmm, during the holidays, im not working. but, rotting at home. hahas. =D will be meeting him later too if nothing goes wrong. will be meeting siblings at 2pm, are we having lunch together?

i hate it when you say that we are useless. everything we do is like dirt to you. no matter how hard we try, we can please you. what exactly do you want from us? us to die? if we are meant to be bookworms, we will be. but so sad, we cant study well enough for you and what you do is scold. you should at least tell us nicely that we have to do our best for the next paper and not compare us with others. do you know how much pressure the kids are going through nowadays? if you dun, den keep quiet and be a good housewife. and not saying that we are useless bums, no brains, good for nothing. if you are so good, den why din you continue your studies after sec4? why get married? feel regretted that you give birth? sorry, we cant go back into your womb right? and yes, my dad is uneducated. so what? at least he has a job and gives you money every month right? stop saying that we are useless like our dad.. everyday what you do is scold. nag, scold, nag. have you ever praised us? not even once. think about it, are we useless or are you?

went over to in ping house in the afternoon as her bf ordered 2 large pizzas and they cant finish. hahah... but i go over oso not much use. i only help to eat 1 piece.. but at least i help horr. hahah. i too full luhh. hmmm, my bf kept working this few days, got no time to accompany me. its always like this. im used to it.. =( hmm, in ping kept saying i nva update. in ping, see this arhhs, I UPDATE LIAO WORR. hahah.. nowadays nva update is got nothing much to write. on the 9th of sept, went out with siblings and had our lunch at soul gardens. hahha.. so fun. but without dajie.. =( after that, went to take neo prints. the feeling like abit weird weird de. maybe is too long nva take lerr bahhs. den we went ps to play arcade. so long nva play lerr, so shiok. hahah. went home around 10pm ++ ?? hmm, not sure. but is was a fun day indeed. =D

i hate myself for being so dependent on you. maybe is last time we meet too much, thats why when we didnt meet for a few days, i feel so weird. like i forgot to do something important.. you promised me that you will accompany when your sept holidays come. but you will work too. but what i never expect is that you will only accompany me for a day. i'm depressed, sad, angry. all different emotions came into me. i hate myself for not being strong enough to accept this kind of things. am i very useless? am very sad but yet i told you nothing happen to me. if you are willing to meet me only tml is because i cried, den its okay. i dun want to force you to do something that you dun want. i wun feel good too. you lied to me again and again. about accompanying me during your holidays? i think its not going to be true. its just a pack of lies. is one day enough for you? i tell you, its not enough for me. i know im selfish, but this is me. im very sad and unhappy everyday, but i still have to pretend that im happy in order not to spoil any one's day, but what lies underneath my heart, no one knows. i hate myself right now.