Overwhelmed..

A hug for me please?


“Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.”
― Dr. Seuss

Pretty girls are everywhere nowadays. With makeup, no makeup, as long as you can name it, you will find it. If they are really blessed, a good figure would just be another bonus to them. Good eh? But there are also many, who are not so blessed but wish to be blessed. I'm just an average and plain girl, waiting to be blessed with good results in my studies for the effort I have put in. Pretty face and good figure is just secondary for me as of now. It's really hard to keep up with people who are younger than me in school. They seem to be so hardworking and are "born" smart, they rest so little but do so well in exams and all. Why can't I be like them too? I admit I'm kinda lazy when it comes to revision, but I do my tutorials, I try my best to understand every lecture, but I will never have results like them. Some just don't know how to be contented with their results. Or maybe I should say, what I am contented with, some will never see it as a good grade? Feeling so depressed recently, always have to urge to just cry but I don't know why. It's because of a D grade I got for Statistics last semester and my GPA now is so lousy. I got one A and two B for my other subjects, just because of a freaking D. Just got back my common test results, not really happy with them though. Passed all but 3 is just average, or below average compared to my classmates. What about the other 1? I just barely pulled through, by half a mark. With all these upcoming projects, I just hope I don't get marked down if I don't match their expectations. It's just this worries that keeps me awake in the night. Worrying that I haven finish tutorials, haven prepare for class test. Think my white hairs will be appearing soon. Knowing that a few of them can score 99/100, it worries me even more.

When will I be able to shine?

Never?